Tuesday, 8 November 2011

Will I ever learn? (A very honest post)

Are you an ever prepared Penelope or(like me)a frantic Felicity?I make,make,make but come October/November time I panic.Orders flood in,the shop starts emptying and Christmas Fayres approach.'I should of made more of those and less of others' and 'Next year will be different;I'll start in June and stay focused' echoes through the cottage.The really silly thing is that I love the preparation stage and thrive on the research and sketchbook work but have a tendency to lose my way if I come across time restraints or other obstacles.I was the same through school,college and university..we would laugh about how I thrived on the adrenalin rush and to be honest I always done well as a result but I have looked a little deeper lately and made some decisions regarding this.

I don't allow myself enough time to really explore my ideas and designs so that is the very thing I want to rectify.I have a stack of sketchbooks on a shelf over my desk all mumbling in a disgruntled manner when I ignore them or add a new book on the pile.When I experiment lately I feel guilty that I'm not actually making anything that I can sell and to be honest that makes me feel even more guilty.
It's funny how you start ventures with clear ideas and goals but they often take many twists and turns and you need to step back and look at where you really want to go.I want to work on clearer more coherent collections and maybe not so many one off pieces.Everything of course will still be in limited amounts and as they are embroidered by hand they are each different anyway but I hope focusing on one or two themes will work well. 

So that is what I have done and have decided that the I really want to explore embroidery much more and combine it with my artwork as much as possible.I had plans for producing embroidery patterns next year anyway so this fits in well with my vision.
I want to explore the 'So Sweet' range much more and have been working on some embroidered pendants like the one below which are based on colour themes and using mostly darning stitches.I'm really enjoying making these and have been wearing one myself nearly every day since I made it.I'm trying to get them into the Folksy shop as soon as I can and will be taken them to Delapre Abbey Christmas Fayre 

So I'm going to have a break from blogging until after Christmas but I will still be reading your lovely blogs and keeping the Folksy shop stocked.So I really hope you can be patient with me and maybe you could pop back after Christmas so I can show you the new and shiny Gracie's Garden Bazaar(hope you have a lovely christmas too!)


Jem said...

Refreshingly honest and it's scary how similar we are - I swing from organised to leaving everything to the very last moment possible, with you on the odd adrenaline rush!

I hope Christmas isn't to stressful in terms of keeping orders coming and shop stocked but at the same time I hope you have a busy Christmas lol :-)

Jem xXx

lilipopo said...

Oh I wish I was a Penelope but sadly have to admit to being a complete felicity. I know just what you mean about losing your way sometimes, it's good to stop and take a breather and have a think about what you're doing. I absolutely love the pendant and can't wait for your embroidery patterns

Kate x

Gracie's Garden Bazaar said...

Thank you both for the support and glad there are plenty of other frantic Felicity's too.Thanks for the feedback about the pendant too:)xx

Supercutetilly said...

Oh Cassandra....I am reading your post and wondering if you read my mind..... I truly hope your break helps you to refocus :)and I'm sure we will all be looking forward to your return. I am with Kate, I also love the pendant and look forward to seeing your embroidery patterns....Have a wonderful Christmas and see you in the New Year :) Nic xx

Gracie's Garden Bazaar said...

Thanks Nic,hope if you are feeling the same that you get a chance to clear your head too to refocus :)xx

Scented Sweetpeas said...

I am exactly the same, I am trying to teach my children to be different but have a feeling they may end up like me :-)

Dawn M said...

Just found your blog, your work is stunning, you are on my wish list x

Gracie's Garden Bazaar said...

Hello Scented Sweetpeas and Dawn M.Thanks for your lovely comments :)xx

Tina said...

Hi Cassandra...I stumbled upon your sweet little cottage online and I feel I am in LOVE with your art. As I read your post, I so see my mom in it. She has been an artist for as long as I can remember, and she says similar things to herself. She has tons of idea notebooks all over the place, grand ideas of what she really wants to do...her mind is constantly filled with inspirations, but she always seems to be running to catch up with all of that energy...catch up on orders, catch up on plans, catch up to where she thinks she is supposed to be. For years, I would encourage her to be fine with where she was. Be okay with what happens. Trust that what is happening is perfect. Enjoy, and shift one thing at a time I would say...just be okay with things as they are and make one little shift at a time. Stick with what your heart loves...and others will feel it too. Like you, people come from far and wide to buy her creations...they love them. And, to me, this is the greatest gift the inspired artists offer the world...they give us the gift of their inspired hearts. I love that you are making just one intentional shift...that WILL make a difference in your artist's heart (and mind)!



Gracie's Garden Bazaar said...

Thank you Tina for leaving such a beautiful comment and for giving such wise advice.I am sure your mother appreciates your reassurance and support,I'd love to see her work.Have a wonderful Christmas and New Year,love Cassandraxx